"I should go help Lynna and Mrs. Gretch." Stott mumbled quickly before turning and dashing off after them. He felt terribly awkward around the mayor now, more than he had before, and the man looked as if he had been about to turn and speak to him directly. He thought he could feel them watching him as he caught up to Lynna and Margaret.
"Hey, what can I do?" he asked them.
"Stott," Margaret stopped and turned to look at him, "thank you for getting us out of that fire. I'm sorry I wasn't able to keep myself straight. Your father would have been very proud of your actions today."
Stott took a step back, as Margaret's words made a panic well up in him that he couldn't explain. His eyes were moist and he suddenly wanted to be anywhere but there. Lynna had been smiling at him just then, but now her smile seemed to fade as if she was still reading his thoughts. He didn't know what to say, but he suddenly felt like everyone in the crowd was talking about him, and he needed to get away. He turned and ran.
"Stott?" He heard Lynna's voice calling after him. He wasn't sure where he was going until he came up short as he neared the water's edge and his father's boat, where it was half-beached and mostly on its side in the water. Even from where he stood, the light was just good enough that he could make out long streaks of blood on the deck. He was only grateful there were no bodies as he fell to his knees on the grass before it, trying to focus on his breathing and clear his head. He glanced back to see Lynna running to catch up with him, her face filled with worry. He sighed, knowing she had more important concerns than he, and his heart wrenched with more guilt that she had taken this time out to come after him.
"Stott?" She slowed down as she came up to him and then lowered herself down to sit beside him, smoothing out her skirts as if they weren't torn, blood-soaked, and covered with dust from earlier.
"You shouldn't be worrying about me, Lynna. Other people need your help much more right now."
"Both Agmar and Margaret said it was okay for me to come after you. They can handle the stuff at the inn, and you shouldn't be alone right now. Not with some evil thing here trying to hurt us when we're feeling most vulnerable. And you, of all people, should know that I'm right about that too."
She took his hand and squeezed it. He nodded, reluctantly, not looking at her.
"Stott, you can't change what happened. It wasn't your fault."
"Everybody keeps saying how calm and good-hearted I am, but where was that yesterday, huh? What kind of calm, good-hearted person hacks apart his own brother with his father's machete?!" He realized that he was yelling, but he didn't care. "Everybody's just pretending. They're saying these things to make me feel better, or something, but it's just making it worse!"
"It wasn't your fault. I saw it, remember? I saw it in your mind. The evil used you. It's strong. I felt it back there in the fire. It was trying to kill me Stott! You really did save my life back there. This evil wants Agmar and I dead most of all. It's just playing with everyone else! It likes pain and anger and fear and death, but it thrives on what it's done to you! I felt it! That demon wouldn't have killed you - it wanted to hurt you more because your pain and grief is helping feed this thing's available power!"
She put her hands over her mouth, eyes wide and tears running down her cheeks. Stott could tell she'd said more than she'd intended to. Stott's heart was in his stomach as he stared at her, somewhat reeling from what she'd said.
"Stott," she said finally, "this thing is powerful and evil and can make us do things we don't mean to if we let go of our strength. I let go for a moment back there too - I almost died - I let it in to burn me. It made me believe that the fire would protect me somehow, and I wanted to be safe right then. I let the shield down and it would have killed me if it hadn't been for you. You did that. And you stood up in front of all those people this morning and stood up for me when I wanted to sink into the floor and hide from everybody. You did those things. The evil, whatever it is, that's what killed your brother. It killed your father too. And you were all alone out there, with nobody to help you stop it. But you're not alone now, so don't let it win now. It's alright to grieve for them, but you're not to blame!"
"You said it wants you and Agmar dead most of all. Because of the magic?" he asked her, suddenly having that part of the conversation sink in. She nodded.
"I think it sees us as the most likely to stop it from doing all the bad things it wants to do here. Because we can heal the wounds and stop some of the other things from hurting people." She looked worried, and her hands were trembling as she fidgeted with the hem of her skirt. She'd managed to stop crying, but her eyes were still welled up with tears waiting to fall. He leaned forward and hugged her suddenly, not saying anything. He wanted to tell her that he'd protect her and keep the evil away, but he knew he couldn't honestly promise that. He knew he'd try and do everything he could. Suddenly his own problems seemed a little lessened by the weight she was trying to carry.
"Don't worry about me, okay Lynna? I know in my mind it wasn't me that did it, it's just going to take me a while to know that in my heart too." He felt her hug him back, and welcomed it, a part of him noticing that despite all they'd been through so far today she still smelled good.